Once again... But do I really care?

Buenos dias, I'm sending this post from class, its really just a thought,or a comment what I want to say, I haven't thought about it, or analized it, not really, I will though, I've always said that its hard for me to fall in love, and that could be true but I have also noticed that I tend to fall in love and up till now I quickly fall right back out.

I'll get back to you on this and explain myself better but just had to write it down so I didn't forget.


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The fact is I don't care.
Every time I find someone and want to be with that person I always give my all, and become the sweetest thing that could exsist. The thing is that with the person I want to be with, loves me and adores me and all of that prettey stuff but doesn't want to be a "couple" and well its becuase he feels that he won't be able to trust in me, and thats were I see the no coherentness in his thoughts.

why do I say this, I can be a @#!*% and i can totaly brake your heart if you let me, but the thing is that I won't ever dream of doing that if you treat me the way i treat and show me how special I am to you.

I'm like a little girl that just wants to be in love right now and wants to be with someone that will apreciat me and care for me. If given that why not trust me?

So what if I have alot attention from males, all the attemtion I want I want from that person.

I am always going off and saying how slimmy guys can be and just "all up in my grill" It's like "get the @#!*% away from me".

Nada all i really want is to be loved and not only that but be able to be loved, anywere i go. I dont want to hide that I want to hold your hand. Remind you, I was never a cuddler i was never a lover, but lately all i want is one person and one love that I want tpo share my time with and my kisses and attention.

Whats wrong with this, he loves me in his own way, but I feel like I'm being jipped, that he is just getting away ith doing or getting what he wants and not wanting anyone ealse to know.

Am I being used?


DEFFECT: Complacecy, and settling fear of losing what I want, and not doing anything to change this.
TASK: Break the mold, and get what I want and need and if not out the window...hopefully


PS;   solo quiero quererte y que me quieras, I just want someebody to love and love me back.

 quiero mi gosdo:(