Sessión #2

Your creative muse could be on fire today, making it easier for you to think outside the box. Being able to see a different way of doing the same thing might spark in you a desire to share your ideas with others. This may be a good time to further enhance and develop your ability to approach things differently. This way, your novel ideas become an integral part of your life by retraining your mind to view the world in a different light. A simple way to accomplish this is to do things that are different from your habitual way, such as using your nondominant hand instead of your dominant hand or taking an alternate route to work today. Altering your routine in some way can create new connections in your mind, which can make it easier to come up with imaginative and original ideas.


Making an effort to change the way we think and exist in the world infuses our ideas with greater creativity. If we go about our everyday habits in the usual way, we can easily become mired in the same thoughts and approach to our lives. Changing even one small part of our lives, however, frees us from the limitations that bind us and paves the way for a more open, receptive, and innovative way of seeing things. Working to retrain your mind today will help you look at the world with fresh eyes and transform your ideas into inspired works of creativity //horoscope@dailyom.com//

That was my horoscope for today.

It frustrate me… the spirituality or the idea of it, maybe it’s not even that it’s is more that fact that the person that wrote it thinks he has all the answer to everyone “B.S.”

Anyway, the thing that gets me more is that obviously its good vibes and good suggestions I mean why call it a horoscope. Why just not say, “when a certain situation comes across or happens you should approach the matter in this state of mind” like a suggestion page. Yeah that’s it! A suggestion page.

Anyway, yesterday I went to some help group meeting witch I have gone for 18 months now ad it was good I had a good time it was in another city so I felt right at home lol.

I’m looking for all the help I can get the thing with me is that I do things for everybody else’s acceptance and love, like for example I started studying to be a an arcatect because my father wanted me too, all that did was frustrate me. The worst thing you could do to yourself is what everybody else wants and expects him or her to love you for it. So in that process of coming to learn that I have to go back to what I want to do and not what my parents want me to do. Oh another example, witch h really gets to me: my mother is a full blown Christian and she wants me to go to like a retreat, it’s like dude, I don’t want to go over there to fuck your weekend up and waist money clapping my hands together and waiving them around to something I don’t believe In. I mean don’t get me wrong I believe in God just not the one that says that you’ll go to hell if you don’t accept my son, but then he will go around and say that he love you but your going to suffer till the end of time if you don’t believe in Jesus. I mean, HELLO! Anyways that is another subject; I’m just going to go to be all pissed of there while she tries to get a connection with her belief of what God is, but Jesus! I’m not going to go there for my birthday weekend I don’t care, it’s my Goddamn b-day but whatever, that’s she talks about now. In addition, that is fine just don’t push it on me. She says that I was the one that took her to God, remember, “THE DRUG STAGE” yeah, it got that bad.

Anyways my mentor inn this help group gave me some questions to answer, which helped me get some major crap off my chest.

One was; what is it about my thoughts or what goes on in my head that I find unhealthy? DUDE you know how much I had to write? Literally, I got a cramp. Cuz it is in a notebook not the computer.

I feel a lot better today though I went to my voice lesson today, I love to sing and I felt a lot brighter and lighter, I was told that I just have to be honest and let things go were ever I can and just get things off my chest. Therefore, since my vocal instructor was new ad young I got her and told her how pissed everything made me. And just all that but I expressed it different cuz know it was funny to me how mad I got and all the B.S that really pisses me off it was just funny now. Like, my dad said, “X come over here, we have to talk.” He stars going over some B.S over the light and how many “watts” etc. etc. I was like shut the FUCK UP I don’t fucking care dot you see I am in the middle of something! But I didn’t say anything and just said okay dad , but can I say that it hurt me, being quiet… sucked cuz I wanted to explode but I started laughing because it was just so stupid to me and my dad is always like that, “full of shit.” Lol

The whole thing is that I changed my way of thinking for a couple of instances and the way of doing things and it didn’t kill me or anything. The bad part of that is actually holding my tong and just letting shit pass. My whole ordeal is that I don’t want to keep my mouth shut because I’m tired of it all. I’m tired of fighting too, so… with deep pain in my very soul, I’m just going to have to accept the fact that there are things that I don’t like in this world and things I don’t want to hear, and remind myself of what I want to do and not what is wanted or expected from me. Because it is my life and I am the only one that can make it mean something ad it doesn’t have to mean anything to anybody else because it only has to mean something to me. What’s the point in living if you’re going to be miserable. I’m the only person that can truly make me happy, I just have to find the way how to.

End of session #2



Assignment for the day:

DEFFECT: I tend to see only in what doesn’t come out as I expected it to and I ignore the beauty of life and all its possibilities.

TASK: Today I will make a list of spiritual and material things in which I am great full.