A mi entender todos tenemos problemas, situacioes y defectos, y en este blog pues estoy sacando los mios para poder hacer ... vamos a llamarlo un "inventario moral" y cojer control de lo que yo llamo "pensamientos enfermisos". Tambien me da la oportunidad de poner mis pensamientos en orden. Este blog es bien personal y bien sincero y se puede decir controvercial. No voy a estar aguantando mis cosas por dentro,



"somos tan enfermos como nuestros secretos."

This is where I am going to speak truths of my feelings. There will be a series of my poems and daily thoughts. A project on how to find inner peace or the processes one goes through to receive it. We will see if it even gets to the point of ever finding that inner peace, a soul search I guess. One that could practically kill me knowing the angry and resentful person I am..





viernes, 10 de junio de 2011

RECAP I have been out


I have finished the semester, I haven’t checked my grades but I’m confident. I was really looking forward for the summer, thinking it was going to be some good time off for me and that I could finally relax but it’s been all the contrary. I went full blast into sorority activities and I even won sorority girl of the year in the convention witch made me feel pretty good.

The man that had coast me much heart break in the begging of my blog has come to visit for the convention, at this same time last year we couldn’t get enough of each other, now I can’t wait for him to leave. I was expecting him to fall in love with me all over again and I as well and even though that didn’t happen I still was expecting attention. I have a bad habit of having to be the center of attention. If not I go nuts and beat myself up inside, it’s an awful and empty feeling I have when my expectations are not met.

I also started working in the summer camp we give yearly and I feel like I am in over my head, I am there from 9-5 all day in the pool, and it is hell for me. Kids jumping, splashing, kicking you tugging you and spitting water in your face, while they yell and cry, bitch and whine.
I also haven’t felt very well, first I had ear infections in both ears a throat infection and then I had really bad pains some my reproductive system which is like the worst thing in the world and now my stomach hurts so much that I can’t eat barely.

My daughter is awesome and perfect; she is talking and is what I want to concentrate on. She is growing up so fast and learns so quickly it can be scary and beautiful. She is the cuddliest and loving child I will ever know. I ONLY WANT TO BE WATCHING HER AND NOTHING EALSE.

My love life is complicated and sad I don’t even want to start with that bull shit just yet.


THIS IS AN INSTANT RECAP OF WHATS HAPPENED
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PS. AND YES I KNOW IM A CRY BABY   

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