How do I Stop?

I seem to be bored, and the sucking part about that is I am the person that always says that if your bored it's becuase your boring, so I am kind of kicking myself in the ass for that.

So all I did this weekend was go to my groups and go to the movies one of them was dope and the other 2 well just what ever a waist of money. So I was really proud of myself when I got though saterday without using anything, i was clean a whole week, I mean the thing is that, Okay so I have been drinking every once in a while, then it turned into every weekend then it was more day in the week as well, then i was taking a couple of drags of some weed and it stopped there but and maybe I have things more under control now but...I'm still not happy.
I still keep hiding from something, and those are my actual feelings of being alone and actually feeling those feelings. I mean, I'm told to change people, places and things and I just keep getting into the same shit. Then I'm told to just, take it easy and it's like... I just don't feel like I can do it you know?
But I haven't lost faith, I mean one day I'll get it right, right?
I can't keep hitting myself over the head if every once in a while I fuck up. But I do have to take into consideration that I can't seem to stop myself or hold myself back, and that I am playing with fire. I mean today, I am not selling myself and I live at home with my family I take care of my duaghter and I am a responsible student and I have a part time job I go to recovery groups and I look for help and my thoughts tell me "x"you do so much you can have a couple of drinks with your friends and you can chill and have fun, but when I say this to myself I forget about the dick that was put in my face a couple a weeks ago for me to suck, totaly out of the blue and why? it was just one of those days I said okay! I going out, and yet again I put myself in that situation. TO BE CONTINUED... GOT CLASS


What ever it is its not fun when things like this happen, it is the weekend again and I have been at home just relaxing I'm alright with that today.

DEFFECT: Doing the same things expecting deferent results.
TASK: today I will do things defferently and see how things go defferently for me.