anything?

Most of the time, i think that everything is made bigger then what it really is. Is it all bull shit? i don't know, I'm tired of having all this goddamn drama maybe and most likely I'm making shit up in my head...
what the hell do i really care about anything? do i really care? am i really scared or are these emotions only to entertain me and my sick ass behavior. I most likely am just making a movie in my head. living out something that impacted me and I found interesting and not really giving a shit about it in the first place. maybe its that i have had a quiet day, maybe its that i have been seeing lately that everything i want i can have so why even sweat it... and what i mean by that is, all i really have to do is make a decision on something and act on my decision and the fucked up thing is that i put my own obstacles in my way. as i said, its all in my head. the insecurities are bull shit whatever is going to happen is gonna happen you either make it or not. its all in my head, jmmm... thats kinda cool.